December 10, 2003 - 3:40 a.m.
I am so torn. I have no idea what I want to do with this year.
I can't go to school this Spring. It's just not possible.
A huge part of me wants to go back to Memphis next fall. I miss it there. I left because I was depressed. Everything seemed terrible. I've grown up A LOT believe it or not. I think I'll be able to go off to another city now. I think I will go out and get a job. I will go to class and all that jazz. I miss Elise so much it hurts. I miss campus. I miss college life.
But, I'll see how it goes. This coming up semester is going to be about getting my life stable. Saving money, eatting right, working a good job, spending less time with friends, doing things that make me happy.
I'd also like to go to APSU this summer and get some of those classes out of the way that I failed twice. ie Intro to theatre, english...and what not.
Who knows....I am so unsatisfied. My life just get itself into a plateau.
